La-la-la…Doh-pi Who?

I was browsing through the net awhile ago…..was trying to find information on what had happened to www.sixthseal.com….ok before i gget to my big news…Sixthseal.com has been banned/shutdown due to the author of the site, Huai Bin got himself in deep shit with the authorities in Singapore because of the explicit contents about abuses of illegal drugs featured in his blog…other than that, he still alive and kicking and currently staying with his family in Sibu. Also just started his new job with a timber company ( got this info from the few sites…so, i cannot guarantee the authenticity of this information…hihi)

Anyways, back to my BIG story haha…..first off….i didn’t know and never expected that my friendster blog is worth to be archived in the cyberspace. 

The entries that i have deleted are stored here but not all unfortunately though….only from Nov 2005 to February 2006. I was shocked but it did feel kinda good though….budutssss….

I was smiling reading through those entries…stuffs i wrote clearly show how self-destructive i was…..it was like reading someone else’s life haha…..weird but was nice to be able to read all those deleted entries and memories….some were good memories some were bad….but hey that’s life…..

When a GIRL is quiet,

Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,

She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyesful of question,

She is wondering how long will you be around.

When a GIRL answers "i’m fine" after a few seconds,

She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,

She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL says I love you, She means it.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",

No one in this world can miss you more than her.

SO GIRLS, TELL ME…ARE THESE TRUE OR WHAT? *winks*
Got this form Alzanah.

This year is gonna be a cuti-cuti year for vincy and i. Currently, so far, we have 3 upcoming trips to a couple of states in Malaysia and one in Bali…..thanks to the FREE SEATS being offered by Airasia ahakss….capat trus bah pi bili online hahaha….it will be a 3month gap for each trip — march, july, october…and probably december….tengah mau cari way lagi la ni….hihihi..

I can’t wait hehehehehe…..especially Bali woohoooo…

*cross finger* Pls Pls…don’t let anything screw our plans…

till then….ladeedaaa~~~

Hrmm….am all alone now at home..my Vincy has gone out with his toy collector friends lepak kat Amcorp Mall. Cian juga dia..since i move in with him…he seldom spend time and lepak with his friends ody…..makes him feel bad leaving me at home….well, i guess i understand how he feels..cos i feel the same too…..He just sms’d me, saying he’ll be home quite late…must be alot of catching up to do with them…cerita-cerita toy-toy baru yang akan keluar or yang tengah hot di pasaran,etc….god knows la cerita-cerita lelaki ni ahahaha…

Anyways, just so you guys know….my life now has been quite a routine. Wake up at 6:30am, go to work, come back from work around 5:50pm, cook, eat, bathe, laze around or maybe fool around *devilish grin* haahaha for a while, sleep and the same cycle repeats every next day haha….

And the only ONE thing that i really look forward to do every day is to have him greet me with his big warm hug every time i reach home from work. Feels so nice to hear him say: "gracy babyy" then followed with a huggie…ahh…besstt…hihihi…

Owh and weekends too…ahahaha…cos can go jalan-jalan with Vincy…and do stuffs together….

Hrmm….bah tu jak la buat masa ni…hihihi…

Wanna watch tv first….

till then~~

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... .. SINGLELove is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the moreit eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best. Save the best for the last!

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... NOT SO SINGLELove isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person". It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... DEEPLY IN LOVEThe true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other... and how good you can understand and comfortable to each other...

To My Friends Who Are... ... ...... PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPENever say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... MARRIEDLove is not about "it's your fault" but "I'm sorry", not "where are you" but "I'm right here", not "how could you" but "I understand", not "I wish you were" but "I'm thankful you are"...

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... HEARTBROKENHeartbreaks will last as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them... don't say somethingbad but just think how's it happened and try to be a better person in future.

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... NAIVEHow to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... POSSESSIVEIt breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... AFRAID TO CONFESSLove hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.  When the person lives with someone else in future, you are a sure dead person.

To My Friends Who Are... ... ... ... STILL HOLDING ONA sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. So, just let go... ..

TO ALL MY FRIENDS... ... .My wish for you is a man/women who's love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, sincere, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish, understanding and know how to take care of our when we need someone the most! Even better if she/he can make us smile when we feel bad... just grab that person... don't let them past by or otherwise we'll regret for the rest of our life!

Got this frm Nonong and because some phrases sorta hit home run to me...i decided to post this up...ladeedaa~~

Sorry guys for the lack of updates lately. Just that i feel that i no longer have the usual zest i used to have when it comes to blogging. In some days i feel like its redundant and just plain bitchy….

For the past few days i’ve been channeling my thoughts through a different way of writing….it’s more or less the same like blogging except that it does not cater for the public’s view….some may call it a personal journal or a diary…

It’s a channel where i am able to absolutely free to pen out everything that i have in mind without having to worry about what others may think…or without having to worry about the consequences….it’s like having a friend who is a fantastic listener…

However, it doesn’t mean that i’m gonna quit blogging….i will still keep on blogging from time to time….especially when i have photos to share or when i feel like i need or want to share somethings with you guys….

Last but not least….love u lots Vincy…

"Relationships have nothing to do with good judgement, doesn’t matter how smart you are…you can still get hurt" - Susan Meyer, Desperate housewives

Ironic isn’t?

Till then~~~

After the deletion of almost all of my previous entries, i realised that it feels kinda weird….i sorta feel empty…all those written memories gone just by a click of a button….
And its not only me who is affected….deeply affected, and i feel bad for that as well…

I didn’t think that i’m gonna be this affected but i sure am….

These past 2 weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster for me and sorta draining me….however, these past few days have been much better……

So many things have been cleared and out in the open….and it’s a good thing..some things do hurt either me or him but i guess it’s better  to face it now then never…..plus, i hate the feeling of not knowing and in constant fear and doubts looming around in my head…

U see…all these come to prove the phrase that RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOT ALWAYS BED OF ROSES…

However, like he said.."WE LEARN NEW THINGS AND LESSONS WHEN BEING IN RELATIONSHIPS THAT IN SOME WAYS HELP US TO GROW AS A PERSON…" I guess, he is right and just have look at it in a positive way…

Sure, there will be more tsunamis to come but hey, with the right attitude, right feeling….bring it on baby….

having said that: I LOVE YOU VINCENT CHENG YAU WEN………

After all that has happened lately in my life…i must say that, i just had to freshen up…and start something new…..

Which includes the deletion of almost all of my previous entries from this blog….

It just adds salt to the wound….

Btw Pootz sorry….i lied heehee…remember when i said you are the one tu ari dalam one of my previous entries…..hahahaahahaha….in fact now U R NUMBER TWO ordy hahaa…labiu pootz….because i have found my ONE…

Kupi, i labiu u too…..daling lissa, mandak lumis, bebeh…kamu pun suma sa sayang…kalau panjang umur kita jumpa lagi kio ahakss..deiiii si dopey ni macam mo p tarajun bangunan jak kekekekeke…

Anyways, welcome 2007!

cheers~~

Dreaming for a life that’s impossible…
Wanting for a life that’s incomprehensible…
Needing for a life that’s bearable…
Longing for a life that’s wonderful….

By,
Dopey PooTZ