First of all, i’ve just turned 28 years old couple of months ago…and being a woman of 28 years old and unmarried (although not single hihi…meaning taken ody la.. ), it is no surprise that my mom ( and i believe any moms…especially those traditional type of moms la) keeps bugging me about the Big M issue….besides the usual how-much-weight-u-lost-recently question…arrgghhh……
Well, weight issue is so old…i’m basically use to it and it’s so easy for me to just brush it aside haha….
As for the Big M thingy, that’s kinda new and it’s actually irritating…and a total mood killer…haih…imagine yourself missing your mom and you call her just to see how she’s doing and catch up with stuff that has been happening lately back home..all excited…when suddenly, the question that you dread most coming out from her mouth….KABOOMMMMM!! right smack in your face!!….say oso no use leh…haha…..and by the end of the day, you end up spending like half an hour trying so freaking hard to justify you actions and decisions and reasoning yourself to her….but still it feels like you are talking to a brick wall (or whatever wall you guys want la…hihi) I do understand her concerns but i have MY OWN concerns as well…
I just wish that she could just accept the fact when i told her (in fact, have been telling her….MANY times) that we are just not ready yet….not in near future….and these kinda things cannot be rushed…You see, first of all…i have just started working…and heck, i’m still using a piece of junk to travel called CAR…and with my meager wage….how can she expect me to start a freaking family….mau kasi makan pasir ka sama anak-anak? adeeiii…haha…(yada-yada-yada…) YES! I know many of you will say, it’s the man’s job to provide all the basic necessities to the family….but i don’t really believe in that…cos i believe that if the woman is also earning, means that she is also capable of being the care giver too…not only the man….thus, it’s her responsibility to provide as well…
Don’t get me wrong here…i’m not in any way crucifying my mom over the cyberspace..i love her to death….it’s just that, sometimes (if not most of the times…) i just wish that she would one day realise that i am no longer the little Gorisuk@iLis she once had total control of….and that she just have to learn to accept the fact that i want to live my life the way i want to and not the way she wants to or what other people a.k.a orang kampung a.k.a relatives expect me to…..
You guys just don’t have any idea how badly i want to say it to her directly….but, i just don’t have the heart to hurt her feelings…i can only give her hints and hope that she would understand and back off with the Big M thingy….and just be glad that her lil-fat-big-gorisuk@ilis has a boyfriend who loves her ( ehem….) and not being a lonely-fat-grumpy-droopy-gorisuk hahaha….
Okay…let me be frank….most part of me is just dying to get hitched…..why? hrrmmm….i’m not really sure why but probably one of the reason is because i love him? haha….or also because i’m terrified of being "over-riped" hahaha….ladeedaaa….whatever the reasons are…it doesn’t really matter…..
Having said that, there is also one teeny tiny part of me inside that is just not ready yet….and the reason for this one is CLEAR…but it’s only for me to know and for you guys to wonder…haha….Hints? hrrrmmm..let’s just say, unresolved issues haha…..
What i’m trying to say here is that, being pressured to get hitched by my mom just sucks big time….ladeedaa~~
